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Name: khairi johann jasmin
Age: 15
Education: not completed
Location: never permanent
Interests: love and life
Likes: almost everything
Dislikes: nothing much
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i give up!!!!!!

December 29, 2004

its gna be a new yr.and i am gna be a j1 guy. hmm. do i deserve the title?do i want the title?wait. its like a pagent tilte. ya. haha. do i still want it or not? apparently i need to buff up more, fast. sad. hmm.

i feel like i have just lost a loved one. ya. its as tho a lover just wanted out and there was nothing i could do. ouch. ya. tts how i feel. my stomach feels weird and my hearts longing for something.but my soul is crying.sji. i miss u.

watching the news and lookina t the people who have lost their loved ones really numbed me. many times today while i sit in front of the television, tears filled my eyes and there was no way i could stop it. then oprah was on and shit la. i realised many wives mothers fathers and family members lost many of their soul mate in wars.

i dont think i can handle life anymore if my soul mate dies. i mean without her, why shud i live anymore? to live is to love and to love whom now?

i realised i am a bitch. seriously. i should have just shut my mouth and not tell anyone anything. ya. maybe being superficial and not be caring is gd. not my nature to be but ya. sigh.

i dont know

kay jay at 10:55 PM :: link


December 19, 2004

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND, WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN

So life just is like. uh. boring i guess. yah. its like i am a driftwood being pushed by the waves of life. whoa. okie. where did that come from. anyway these past weeks haf been really testing for me. faced many dilemnas. met the devil incarnate. resisted the temptations. resisted the urges.

so my modelin career is like still not happening. the story is that te guy said i didnt have a fierce look, when the market wants a fierce look. but he said i looked sweet. bleah. so kena rejected from the fotoshoot. next, i was asked to be represented by spore's top most prestigious agency. cos i had that potential black beauty look. i had to decline that offer cos i couldnt pay for my new portfolio. no. they cant pay for me the portfolio
cos that piece of shit is mine, and i can run away with it and not pay back and make loads of money from it. so i hafta pay it by myself. so ya. u wont see me doin anything anytime soon.

am i askin too much when i set a person to do something? why do people not use their brains and commonsense when doing a task? sometimes it is quite obvious the solutions to the problems u face. i sincererly hope you will survive jc life, if u still have to depend on others to help you. sad.

love. i hate this word, yet i cant live without what the word represents. sigh. i dunno. confused.

Am i worthy enough to represent U to the world?

kay jay at 11:32 AM :: link


December 08, 2004

hello people of the world!

did you know that in a fashion show, the lady models walk faster than the guy models? in the same show, on the same runway and to the same music. apparently, the ladies are suppossed to be in an excited state of mind while the guys are suppossed to be drugged. now u noe. i didnt. hahah. cool right?

holidays have been okie i guess. don have the freedom to tann all i want. i have ben working. hahah... yesterday i was selling guys thongs at orchard for newurbanmale. hahha... kewl... wore supershortshorts and modelling a red thong for them to see.hhaa... had to flash my ass a few dozen times. haha. a few less than manly men bought, but the majority of buyers were teenagers like us and middleaged business men. kewl rite? hahah... didnt know ths. got to keep the thong.

gonna teach this pair of chinese boys how to speak malay in sport school. hahah they are goin there thro soccer. they are damn skilled i tellu . haha. aniway, their parents are aware that most of their peers will be malay, so they want their sons to be able to communicate to their peers... kewl rite? ahahah...

i love u.

kay jay at 1:41 PM :: link


November 25, 2004

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Khairi has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Khairi fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Khairi has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Khairi just comes into someone's home and helps himself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Khairi finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when he was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Khairi exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world.

Khairi allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Khairi has a vivid imagination.

Khairi has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Something is incomplete in Khairi's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Khairi's sexual needs.

Khairi is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Khairi's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Khairi that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Khairi also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Khairi is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem.

Khairi's self-concept is artificially low. Khairi will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Khairi to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Khairi is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.


In reference to Khairi's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Khairi slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Khairi can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.


Khairi will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Khairi will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Khairi believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.


Khairi uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Khairi does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation.

In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Khairi will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Khairi is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Khairi doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

According to the inputted data, Khairi has a stinger shape inside the oval of his a, d, or c. This might be hard to visualize, but if this little hooklike shape is present, then Khairi has an unresolved "issue" with strong members of the opposite gender. An occasional appearance of this stroke could indicate a simple "loves a mental challenge" which can manifest in playful linguistic conversations and being attracted to a lover who isn't always available. However, if the stroke is severe, this means the individual has unresolved anger at the oppostive gender - which usually started with the person's childhood relationship with the opposite gender parent (Mom or Dad). If the writer is a woman she will be attracted to strong challenging men. If the writer is a man, he will find the woman who is "hard to get" the most attractive. In a nutshell, people with stingers in their writing tend to have challenges in their romantic relationships. For more information about this "stinger" trait, visit this webpage: http://www.myhandwriting.com/analyze/hlltrt5.html. Remember, it is only negative if the traits occurs often and is quite pronounced. An occasional stinger can be no problem.

hey... this is quite true. sigh. wow.

kay jay at 10:28 PM :: link


October 24, 2004

heyheyhey!!
i dont know how to feel. my life is like a big irony. i sould feel sad
but i don. i should feel blessed but i don think i m.

my mom lost her job yesterday. she didnt show how she felt but i knew she felt really insecure. cos her only goal in life now is to bring me up comfortably and give me the best education there is. sad isnt it? once you become a single parent, thats your ultimate goal. you haf to sacrifice your childhood dreams.
not saying anything la but it would be hard to get a job as she is quite mature. and she dun haf that high a qualifications.sigh.

as you all probably would have known, i have this nj appeal. yah. through hockey. thing is, now indian dance wants me too! haha... crazy. but i may have to do arts. haha. funny, everyone wants me to do arts cos i seem to be good at it. sigh. okie. i will have to go for another round of hockey trials and audition for that indian dance. haha... okie....

yah. my blood pressure is escalating. i began takin the pills. haha... just to stay calm and collected. yah. oh well... haha.

i feel like a bimbo. i look like a bimbo. am i a bimbo? haha.

love you darling.

kay jay at 9:17 PM :: link


I am 57% evil.




I'm getting there. I haven't done all the damage I could do but I've done quite a bit. I'm just over the border into the Evil Zone.



Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com


huh? me? evil? since when? i am soooo nice!! arnt i? ;)
love u

kay jay at 1:02 PM :: link


October 17, 2004

At The Beginning
by Richard Marx

We were strangers starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you


No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(Chorus)
And Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(Chorus)
And Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you


Knew there was somebody somewhere
Like a light in the dark
Now I know that dreams will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

And Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep goin
Love is a river I wanna keep goin on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Okie its me now... i just wanna cry again and again. the sorrow that i feel really sucks! i know many of you are saying 'let go khairi' but its hard. and u know it too. u know i am passionate about these things. sigh. oh well let time untangle this knot i feel inside.

okie lets go back to the paraliturgy. haha... i expected a more poignant time or ceremony. but oh well. but i have to say that they have succeeded in making me cry like shit. it all started pouring when jliew said 'im gonna miss the smile and waves of khairi and...' from that moment on.... you know la. haha. i couldnt stop the fountain. it was on autonatic. haha. sigh.

then the next touchng thing that happened was yesterday, at psltc. let me tell u, they are sooooo boring. haha... no psfs running aroung screaming and stressing out.haha... they are very different. which is good. haha. wow. they are really accepting. haha i love u ppl! esp zixiang, syazwan, davidson, binnie, derrick and the rest! its people like you who makes it all worthwhile...

then i went to the open houses. haha. i hope that i can get in thro malay dance... haha. i dun wanna do indian dance or hockey... but hey, there is always cjc? haha... sad. should have done better shit! okie, now i am more determined to study hard. and beat all of u. u shitheads!

no. i love u still. dun forget me now that i am gone. i will still love u.

kay jay at 10:19 AM :: link


At The Beginning
by Richard Marx

We were strangers starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you


No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(Chorus)
And Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(Chorus)
And Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you


Knew there was somebody somewhere
Like a light in the dark
Now I know that dreams will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

And Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep goin
Love is a river I wanna keep goin on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Okie its me now... i just wanna cry again and again. the sorrow that i feel really sucks! i know many of you are saying 'let go khairi' but its hard. and u know it too. u know i am passionate about these things. sigh. oh well let time untangle this knot i feel inside.

okie lets go back to the paraliturgy. haha... i expected a more poignant time or ceremony. but oh well. but i have to say that they have succeeded in making me cry like shit. it all started pouring when jliew said 'im gonna miss the smile and waves of khairi and...' from that moment on.... you know la. haha. i couldnt stop the fountain. it was on autonatic. haha. sigh.

then the next touchng thing that happened was yesterday, at psltc. let me tell u, they are sooooo boring. haha... no psfs running aroung screaming and stressing out.haha... they are very different. which is good. haha. wow. they are really accepting. haha i love u ppl! esp zixiang, syazwan, davidson, binnie, derrick and the rest! its people like you who makes it all worthwhile...

then i went to the open houses. haha. i hope that i can get in thro malay dance... haha. i dun wanna do indian dance or hockey... but hey, there is always cjc? haha... sad. should have done better shit! okie, now i am more determined to study hard. and beat all of u. u shitheads!

no. i love u still. dun forget me now that i am gone. i will still love u.

kay jay at 10:19 AM :: link


October 12, 2004

Today you should stumble upon a solution to a pressing problem, KHAIRI. You could have a breakthrough in an area of your life that has been causing some stress. If your personal life has been dragging you down, things should lighten up. If work has been a bear, it should growl a little less right now! You'll be able to tame the savage beast and to organize things into a more workable plan.

sigh... today is soooo boring. i pity periasamy. mo one listens to her. sad.

kay jay at 8:32 PM :: link